As a girl, I long to be the chosen one.
We all long to be the chosen one. Whether it be chosen for a team, chosen for a solo, chosen for a job, chosen to be a mother, chosen to be a wife, and the list goes one.
There is something about being chosen that makes us feel special. Feel loved. Feel accepted. The problem is, in this life we won't always be the chosen one. Teams will disappoint us, people will disappoint us. Life won't always go as planned, and most times it won't go as we want it, either.
In my life right now, in complete honesty, I long to be the one that HE chooses. And by that I mean my future husband, whoever that may be.
Some days I am completely content and feel absolutely blessed by the life I have been given, then other days I feel completely discontent. I want more. I want this life, or that life.
Why couldn't he have pursued me? Why a different girl? What is wrong with me? Why didn't he CHOOSE me?
As an almost 23 year old girl who has never been kissed, or better yet never even been on a date, these questions run through my head. No, not constantly, but the days that I am discontent, this is what, if you peered into my mind, you would see. These are the days I am most mad at myself. Why does my mind think like that? Well one, I am a girl and two, I have a longing to married.
But really, the reason is because those are the days I forget that the ultimate One that matters, Jesus Christ, has CHOSEN me. He has accepted me. Shouldn't that be enough? I am His treasured possession. Therefore, I am a treasure.
"For you are a people holy to the LORD your God. The LORD your God has
chosen you out of all the peoples on the face of the earth to be his people, his
treasured possession." Deuteronomy 7:6
"I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have
chosen you and have not rejected you." Isaiah 41:9
"Here is my servant, whom I uphold, my
chosen one in whom I
delight..." Isaiah 42:1
So why is it after I hear that they have chosen someone else do I still throw a pity party for myself? I am human and I am not letting myself be filled with the holy spirit. Period. HE is the ONLY thing that will fill that void that I am missing. HE is the only 'thing' that will make my life content.
The honest truth is, contentment doesn't come because of circumstances. Contentment is something that continually has to be practiced and learned, it's not a natural human feeling, because as humans we always want more. But, as Christians, in Christ, we have a hope. Yes, I can say that most times I am a pretty content person. I thoroughly enjoy that life Christ has blessed me with. But at times I just want more, or just want to be that chosen one. This is something that I have been wrestling with all week. These weeks come and go.
Sometimes my desire to meet my future husband, or even go on a date, for that matter are more than others. This is one of those weeks. I have been, more so, discontent.
I am not writing all this for a pity party at all. I am simply writing this for myself. It is a reminder to me that in all HIS timing is perfect and yet again, I am CHOSEN by the one that matters most.
These are also the weeks, to get my mind in the right place, that I constantly pray for my future husband and truly ask the Lord to grow us where we are now to be the perfect husband and wife for each other when that time comes. That he would prepare me to serve and love my husband more than I could ever imagine and vice versa. That we would truly be each others perfect compliment. Praying is the only thing I can do because who knows the Lord's time table?! Not me. Who knows, it could be one week from now or 11 years from now. All I can do is pray, and pray, and pray. That HE would be preparing our hearts.
Until then, all I know is the Lord has me to himself and He loves that! It is a time in my life where I can fall head over heals in love with Jesus, because frankly, I have nothing else to fall head over heals in love with. And I'm sure once I get married, I'll have to remind myself even more that HE is truly the only thing that satisfies and HE was still the first to CHOOSE me.
"Then he said: 'The God of our fathers has chosen you to know his will and to see the Righteous One and to hear words from his mouth. You will be his witness to all men of what you have seen and heard." Acts 22:14-15
"He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD." Proverbs 18:22
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phillipians 4:11-13
Sweet Timmy. We love you!
Brad and Angelina (For the record, Brad looked the worst out of any of them. It was sad.)
I had to do this once...but doesn't she look freakishly real?
Our good man, Abe!
They're BFF
Jackie-O
President George Bush. He looked so serious.
Princess Diana. This was kind of odd. But she looked so good!
Jen really does have a special bond with the presidents!
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