I'm Killing My Blog

One of these days I'm going to start a normal post with a normal sentence and it won't say something like, "I'm killing my blog one day at a time."

Sweet mercy.

So, let's all just pretend I've been around lately and have posted more than three blogs in the past month and move on, shall we?

Deep breaths.

I feel better now.

With that out of the way, let's transition to a list of my favorite things currently. Because when I feel stressed about my lack of blogging coupled with my desire to continue writing, a list relieves some of the stress.

1) Bayou City Fellowship. Let it be said, I love my church so much. I honestly didn't think after leaving Cypress Bible that I'd fall so hard so quickly, but I have. And I think that's okay. There are most definitely relationships and people I miss dearly, but overall, the Lord has been so good in allowing me to really enjoy where He's planted me. Curtis Jones has a gift and to sit under his teaching weekly has been the biggest blessing. The only way I can explain the past couple of weeks is that the Holy Spirit has shown up and is working among the people. The fact that I've been given a front row seat to enjoy that is beyond me. It's been a while since I've left church every week feeling both extremely challenged and yet built up and it is a beautiful thing. If you don't have a home church, come visit us one Sunday at Houston Christian High School at 10:00 am. We'd love to have you! And if you don't live in Houston, don't miss the BCF podcasts on iTunes.

2) BCF worship. I grew up in an extremely musical household. My parents have always been a part of the worship team and I followed in their footsteps as soon as I was allowed. After growing up in choir and praise team, I honestly came to BCF with intentions of not getting involved in the worship team. True story. I didn't even know how to get involved. I decided after doing it at my previous church that I wanted a break. Then through a series of circumstances, I ended up getting the privilege to sing early on, and now I'm so thankful the Lord saw fit to make that happen when it did. It has been my greatest joy to serve in that way. Getting to be a part of that team and seeing how the worship has evolved, has been one of the neatest and most fun things I've been able to be a part of! It is different. For the better. I'm humbled and grateful.

3) Skinny jeans. Y'all, I'm addicted. I wear them ALL THE TIME. As much as I used to despise tapered jeans growing up, it amazes me how in love I am with them. I know I'll probably look back one day in utter disgust, so I'm currently soaking up my love for them by wearing them as often as possible. And really, church, worship then jeans? I'm so godly.

4) Loreal Telescopic Mascara. I get asked quite often what type of mascara I use, and there you have it, folks. Nothing fancy. But I'm not sure what I'll do when they discontinue it. I hope it stays as classic as the green and pink tube of Maybelline mascara.

5) My gray Toms. I adore them. The first pair of Toms I ever purchased were red, and don't get me wrong, I love them as well, but my gray pair is more versatile. Not to mention the comfort factor, in my little opinion, is quite fantastic.

6) New friends. Yes, they are becoming some of my very favorite things. I keep singing the girl scout song, "Make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold." All of my sweet friends are golden. And I am so thankful.

7) Organic Horizon Chocolate Milk. I am not ashamed to buy the carton of milk at the store even though I have no child under the age of four living with me. That stuff is ridiculously good. I feel more justified when my roommate drinks it, too. Which she does. In fact, she bought the last carton.

Well, that list went from spiritual to materialistic really quick. I'm gonna take it as my cue to bid you goodbye and thank you for putting up with my random nonsense.

Passion 2012

Almost six months ago, this past July, I learned during a really special meeting that LPM was going to sponsor 1000 young women to attend Passion 2012 in Atlanta. During the middle of all of that chatter, I also learned that I would be heading that way as well with LPM. To say I was pumped would be a vast understatement.

For whatever reason, I have never personally been able to attend a Passion conference. I think a lot of that was due to the fact that during my college years they took some time off to travel around the world, but it just never worked out for me.

I’ve been a part of the conference every year in the smallest way possible in that I have owned every CD passion has ever released to the general public. And need I even say they are some of my favorite worship CD’s? It just doesn’t get much better. So, to have the opportunity to go, spend time with girls, and worship alongside 44,000 other people sounded good to me.

Last Monday morning, very early, six of us from LPM hopped on a plane together headed to Atlanta, I had very few expectations. I just wanted to hear from the Lord. I got to serve as a group leader while the rest of the crew all served as volunteers, mostly in the capacity of serving in a community group. Serving as a group leader just allowed me time to hang out and minister to the thousands of college girls attending. Could there be a better job? I submit that there cannot.

The sweetest thing was that I got spend most of my time with two groups of girls that I’ve known for quite some time and used to be their bible study leader. I loved that and loved my time with them.

When I say we didn’t stop from the time we touched base in Atlanta to the time we left, I am not exaggerating or lying one bit. We literally landed, dropped our stuff off at the hotel, and then the fun began.

Picture with me 44,000 people trying to register at one time. Yes, the line was out the door and wrapped around the convention center. I have literally never seen anything like it, little did we know, it was just a taste of what the rest of the week would look like. Lines, crowds, lines, crowds, a little more waiting, a little more patience and a little more crowds. People were EVERYWHERE. It was crazy town.

That night as Passion started, the dome was pumped up. Before anyone took one step on that platform, different folks read from the Word so we could acclimate. It was powerful. From that moment on, the Spirit of the Lord fell on that dome and His presence was felt. Louie Giglio welcomed us, welcomed the band, welcomed the choir (oh, the choir), and challenged us with a word to rise up!

One thing I have to add here is that if every choir in the world had as much passion and energy as the Passion choir, I can almost guarantee that every church would still have a choir. They were amazing! Of course, I’m a choir girl myself so they may have had a small impact on me, but I think they made the worship times all the richer.

Once the first session was over students and group leaders alike headed to community groups for the first time where we’d be placed with a family group that we’d come to know and love. The group leaders were really blessed in that we had some really special visitors everyday such as Louie Giglio, Francis Chan and John Piper. Can you say spoiled? It was really sweet.

The rest of the week went as follows:

Wake up before the sun, eat breakfast, head to morning community group, go straight from CG to the main session, go to lunch (yes, they fed all 44,000 of us. Whoa.), go to main session #2, try and find dinner with 44,000 other people in a matter of two hours, end your day with main session #3, meet with your community group, go to late night (late night was a concert each night by David Crowder Band or Hillsong), get to your hotel by 1:00 AM, fall in your bed and do it all over again. Exhausting? Yes, in every sense of the word. Worth it? Absolutely.

In the middle of all of that, we had the sweet pleasure of meeting with the 1000 girls LPM had the privilege of sponsoring. That may have been my favorite part of the week. They were the sweetest, most gracious group of girls ever. We got to hug and pray over them, which was really neat. For me, it was fun putting a lot of those names with faces.

I am still processing so much personally like, what does all of the truth I heard mean for me? My ministry? The girls I serve? There is a lot in my head, but it’s all wonderful.

There is one thing I know for sure, our God is a big God. If you’ve grown up in church like me, I know you know that and hear that all the time, but He really is so big. I have made Him so little in my mind for so long. I am a firm believer that we need to make sure our students understand that the same God they experienced at Passion is the same God they can experience in their own bedroom. His Word is living and active and will change your life. I love a good week at camp, but I never want it to be a spiritual high, I want life change. However, being at Passion is most definitely a wonderful kick-start that I wish every college student could experience. Yesterday somebody at lunch summed it up right when they said they feel like they’re on an IV of the Holy Spirit at Passion. That’s so true. The Lord has granted much favor upon those conferences and I watched lives be changed. It was incredible.

To get your focus off of circumstances and on a big God that loves you dearly and invites you to know Him intimately is one of the best things anyone can experience. All of the sudden, your worries seem small and your God astounding. He can take it all and deal with all of it, even when you feel like you’re spinning out of control.

One thing I absolutely cannot get over is the sacrifice the students made to help free slaves all over the world. At the beginning of the week Louie challenged to the students to raise one million dollars to help free captives, at the end of the week, not only did the students raise one million dollars, they far surpassed the goal and raised over THREE MILLION dollars. Tell me that’s not amazing! Do not count this generation out, y’all. They’re here to fight for freedom. They’re going to fight to know God personally despite what this world is throwing at them. There is nothing greater than seeing Jesus in them. It is sweet.

God’s name and renown is the desire of their hearts. Oh Lord, may they live boldly for you. In Jesus’ name.

This is how they spelled my name at Starbucks the morning we left. Hello, my name is Linzze.

Sabrina, KMac, Kimberley and me about to head out!

We met some sweet girls headed that way as well. So fun!

Kelli and I on the plane!

A sea of students registering.

Welcome to The Dome.

We are here for you, Jesus!

Beth bringing us a word on Tuesday morning.

Later that day we got to meet with the 1000 sponsored girls. Here they are! Precious.

Mary and I. : )

A sweet group of girls I know from A&M. I've known Taylor, on the very far left, her entire life!

The girls I spent the majority of my time with. And also my old Bible study girls. I love them to bits!

Sara and I on the last morning.

My sweet friend Raven was their as a group leader with her church so it was super fun getting to be with her and Nick all week. The last morning we were twinkies on accident!

One last TIRED picture before we headed out! We were exhausted! Love her.

Louie Giglio sending us out on a strong word. So thankful for that man and his vision.


Thank you, LPM and Passion, for letting me experience an incredible week. I am forever grateful.

"Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should." Ephesians 6:19-20

A Little Blog Love

My poor little blog has been severely neglected this past (almost) month. Looking back at 2011, I wrote less than I have any other year that this blog has existed. I think a lot of that was due to the fact that I was 1) very busy and 2) there was a lot going on that I couldn’t really reveal on the blog, and when big things are happening, little mundane things to blog about are harder to come by. I know I am making this way more dramatic than it is, but those are my only excuses for the neglect. Blogging most definitely took a back seat in 2011. I am hoping to revive it in 2012, but I can make no promises. Only time will tell!

ALL of that to say, I have about four posts written in drafts that all have about one line and then are a blank slate. Needless to say, I’m going to let those posts die in my drafts and start with a clean slate (ten days later) in 2012.

So, what have I been up to?

In case you were on the edge of your seat dying to know, it has been BUSY around my parts of the world.

First, there was Christmas. Christmas was actually very calm. We had a small, nice, peaceful Christmas at my parents’ house with our little family that morning, then that evening headed to celebrate the day with some dear friends of ours, the Snow’s. I enjoyed it so much.

However, it was after Christmas when all the action happened. Two days later, my family from Colorado arrived, I took a few days off work, and from there I think we took them to every legit restaurant in Houston. Not really, but I feel like all we did was eat. It was magical.

My time with them was shorter because before they left to head back home, I left with a few of my co-workers to head to Passion 2012 in Atlanta. That is an entire different post for a different day, and I am really hoping I get that written. I process things by writing them out, so I know it would be so beneficial, if for no one else but me. We had an amazing time there last week, then came home on Thursday evening and jumped straight into work on Friday. Of course, I dragged my feet to the office, but it was a surprisingly productive day.

This weekend I managed to take down Christmas décor, finally, slept in, took a nap, surprised a 14 year old with a Justin Bieber life size cut out for her birthday, went to church, had a meeting, then went to a surprise party. It was a full, but fun weekend!

Now, two days later, I’ve finally completed one training run for my half-marathon in March and been full on at work. In case you are curious, I am far from bored.

I’m not sure if this post can actually be deemed as a revival for the blog, but for now, it will have to do. I sure have missed blog world!

Happy Tuesday, y’all.

Oh, and Happy New Year! Better late than never, right?