I have written and re-written this blog post a million times. I'm just not sure my words can convey the joy or thankfulness in my heart over this past weekend, but I am just going to write from my heart, not let my perfectionist mentality get in the way and hopefully you'll hear how amazing our God is.
I don't know about you, but I personally love hearing testimonies. To hear how God has transformed a person's life is a very powerful thing. Often times I think we think that God doesn't perform miracles like He did in the Bible, and although He may not be performing miracles outwardly, inwardly I think He's in the business of doing many miracles in the hearts of His people. Hearing how God has worked in someone else's heart brings hope to your own heart. Certainly, if He can transform their life, He can transform mine.
When I was in college, before I was even offered or took this job as girls minister, I remember being at
Taco Bueno with Megan, my college roommate at the time, telling her that if I could plan a retreat for girls it would be one where I could bring in multiple people to share their testimonies with the girls. I just thought it would be really neat. Do you remember that, Megan?
Fast forward three years later, not only am I a girls minister, but I'm in the process of planning my third girls retreat and not sure what it's going to look like. Then I remembered that conversation at the very spiritual
Taco Bueno, so I took that idea to my team of ladies that I am forever indebted to, they all thought it was a great idea, so I pursued that route and started praying asking the Lord to put ladies on my heart to share their story.
This was a very tricky thing, because we wanted ladies that could be relevant, share clearly, would be willing, could communicate it well to middle school and high school girls, but that also love the Lord with all their heart. Sharing something so sacred and tender isn't easy, so I didn't want to take this lightly. I was so nervous to ask the ladies placed on my heart, because I didn't want any of them to feel pressure to say
yes in the least bit.
No would have been a perfectly fine answer, but at the same time, I was believing God to provide three speakers.
Praise the Lord, after some time of thinking and praying through it, each of them said
yes and we were able to move forward. I'm pretty sure I did a happy dance in my office the morning I got my last email because I just so relieved. God had provided! Not only that, but the vision I had years before was really going to happen. How exciting!
Of course, over time, retreat took over my life and every thought, then finally, this past weekend it came and went. To me, even though I've never planned a wedding, it feels very much just like that. You plan and plan for months, it lasts all of 22 hours, and then it's over.
My friend
Debbie led worship for us all weekend and she is just superb. The girls loved her! And so did I! Just so real, honest and fun. She leads worship at a church here in town, so I was so thankful that she'd give up a weekend to come hang with some crazy girls!
Friday night my friend Penny, who I've known almost my entire life, shared her story. I love her to pieces and she cracks me up. Interestingly enough, her daughter is a senior in our youth group and was there this weekend. I am so thankful for Penny and her willingness to share even with her own flesh and blood among the girls. Penny is a wonderful teacher, and a really great story teller. I wish all of you could spend 10 minutes with her. She is the real deal, no beating around the bush. I love her!
That night we did a lip sync and I laughed so hard! The girls only had 45 minutes to practice their song, so it made it all the better. Plus, the props? Oh, the props they had to use. I love that they get so into these little things. It makes my heart so happy!
After little sleep, Saturday morning came quickly and my new friend, Laura, one of our adult leaders' best friends, shared her story. She lives in Austin and funny enough, her brother-in-law was the speaker at my high school senior spring retreat. We loved him, so it was really fun to have her there. Public speaking is not her thing, but she counsels girls one-on-one and is very passionate about her story so was willing to do this for them and me. You would have never known that public speaking is not her thing, she did so wonderful and I know it hit home with the girls. I am so thankful for her for many reasons!
In between all of the sessions, the girls went to a small group where they could debrief what they just heard, answer some questions and think about their own story. I think that is so important, because if not, they may never take the time to really think about what they just heard.
After lunch I had a guys panel come in and do an hour long Q&A with the girls. Can you say powerful? These girls hear almost daily from us to dress modestly, remain pure, guys are visual, and yada, yada, yada, but to hear it out of a guys mouth, how different guys really are, puts things in a greater perspective. They did awesome! The girls hung on to every word they said!
For the last session, my sweet friend
Amanda shared her story. She wrote about her experience
here and it brought me to tears. I am so thankful for her obedience to God to share her story, even though that's not her thing and even when her flesh felt so weak, with my girls. When we are at our weakest, He is stronger in us and Amanda was testimony to that on Saturday. I think she underestimates her gift of teaching. But that's just me. Not only did she just share Saturday afternoon, she hung out with us all weekend and that was really fun! I loved having her there. I can't tell you enough how much I adore and look up to that girl. I love her, too!
Funny enough, even though each of these ladies said speaking wasn't their thing, each one of them did an excellent job at clearly conveying how God had transformed their lives. I know, because I was there, and because the girls are still talking about it. They left a mark on those hearts. A mark for eternity. You can't hear stories like theirs and not want to respond to the gospel. You can't hear stories like theirs and not want God to do the same thing in your life. And to get that as a middle school student, or a high school student? Oh my word, that's powerful. No amount of thank yous I say, or no amount of me telling you how thankful I am for each of them is enough. I'm truly beyond thankful.
You know what else blows my mind? I challenged the girls this weekend to raise $256 for
Rescue Life. That amount of money rescues two girls from human trafficking. There is nothing greater than being a part of someone else's story and I wanted them to see that. We live in a culture that revolves around us, but there is so much going on around us that we ignore. By the end of the retreat they had raised $331. And they're still giving! I am so proud. I challenged them to keep giving and praying for these girls caught in this awful trap. I pray those chains are broken soon!
I don't know what your testimony is. I don't know how God has worked in your life. But if you are in Jesus Christ, He IS working in your life. Let Him work in your life. Then take some time to share it with somebody who could benefit from it. And really, who can't? Even though we may look like we have it all together, or that we've lived a close to perfect life, not one of us has. We're not fooling anybody. Expose someone to the gospel. You never know the difference you'll make. A redeemed and transformed life is a powerful thing. Use it for God's Glory!
In a nutshell, here is my facebook status from yesterday. I am overwhelmed by God's goodness.
77 girls = a lot of estrogen, 20 leaders = a huge blessing, 3 speakers willing to share their story = a gift from God, 1 worship leader = awesome, one hotel = swanky, 4 guys for the Q&A panel = wisdom and entertainment, rescue life = $331 raised, getting to serve, love and watch the girls worship and seek after Jesus = priceless. I'm so blessed. Jesus is better!
P.S. I'm hoping to have some pictures up tomorrow!