I Did It Scared

Remember that time I blogged about “Doing it Scared?”

Well, folks. I did it. Scared out of my ever livin’ mind.

I did it with my knees shaking, palms sweating and even some shortness of breath, but I didn’t doubt for one second that the Lord is strong when I am weak. That He would speak when I opened my mouth. That He would receive every bit of glory from my tiny little message.

What did I do, you ask?

I taught on Sunday morning to our high school group.

Not just my girl’s bible study, but the whole entire group.

I’m not saying I did it good by any means, or that it was the worst thing ever. But, I know I did it with an obedient, willing heart that I am praying pleased our sweet Jesus.

Last week was kind of a strange, crazy week and on Wednesday morning, my boss JJ got a call from his dad that his mother had unexpectedly passed away. Of course this sent not only JJ, but the entire office into a quick tizzy so that we could make plans for him to not only leave immediately to be in Tennessee, but to be gone for at least a week. (If not longer.)

The first thing we had to figure out was who was going to teach on Sunday, despite the short notice. He looked at me, and I totally flinched. You see, he’s been encouraging me to teach for the last year, but I just haven’t felt “ready.” But, if you think about it, when am I ever going to feel “ready?” It’s not me anyway, it’s the Lord speaking through me. I’m so used to a smaller group, of especially just girls, and a larger group is so out of my comfort zone it’s not even funny.

So, after I thought 2.5 seconds about it, I nodded my sweet little head yes and was instantly committed to teaching on Sunday. I was every kind of emotion you can think of. Every kind. If this wasn’t the perfect opportunity to push me out of my comfort zone, I don’t know what is.

So, I studied, prayed, worshiped, studied some more, prayed some more, worshipped some more and eventually Sunday morning was here before I knew it.

I was so nervous I sat in my office going over my notes for almost 2 hours before high school even started.

I’m normally a very outgoing person, but the thought of teaching this many students (and adults I might add) just made me more timid.

However, once I got started, I felt a wave of peace wash over me, my knees stopped shaking (as did my voice), my palms stopped sweating, and I tried to relay to the group what the Lord laid on my heart.

I did it scared. But, I did it. With him guiding me every step of the way.

To those of you that knew I was going to teach, thank you, from the bottom of my heart for your prayers. I felt them and received them! Y’all rock.

So, next time the Lord challenges you to do something that is scaring you half to death. Take the plunge. Do it scared. I promise he won’t fail you. He didn’t fail me. Praise Jesus!

"God doesn't want us to be shy with his gifts, but bold and loving and sensible." 2 Timothy 1:7 (The Message)