A Hypochondriac

This weekend has been, hands down, one of the laziest weekends I've had in a long time. However, I needed it more than I realized. Normally when I have lazy weekends like this and I do nothing of productiveness whatsoever, I feel guilty. Nope. Not this time.

It all started Thursday night when I decided not to do anything. My parents were going to dinner and I was invited, but I declined the offer because I was flat out exhausted. So, instead I rented Fireproof and watched it by myself. Y'all, in my opinion, it was so good. I know I'm not even married, but I would encourage every married couple to watch it if you haven't already. It is just such a Godly example of marriage and that love is worth fighting for. Actually, it is so good that I got home from the Super Bowl party early (as if I was ever interested in the first place) and put it on again. I know, super dork here. Anyway, I just think so highly of it.

Friday night I had my Jr. High girls bible study and it went great. I think they are so cute, and love their honesty and all of their questions. I am pretty sure we had "bible study" for an hour and a half, and if you know Jr. High girls at all, you know that is a record. One for the books, folks.

Saturday was when everything went funky.

I, first of all, slept in really late, just like Thursday, but I couldn't seem to shake the tiredness that had taken over me. I just wanted to get back in bed and sleep. I didn't do that despite how bad I wanted too, so, around 4:30 I decided that if I was going to do anything that night, I needed to be somewhat presentable. Like any other girl would do, I hopped in the shower.

Oh, y'all. It was weird.

I was in the shower for all of 3 minutes, enough time to shampoo then put conditioner in my hair, when a very strange feeling came over me. My heart was racing and I felt like I was going to pass out. Was I really that tired? Of course, in my mind I just kept telling myself to hurry up and I'd be fine once I got out of the shower. Well, in all of two seconds I sat down because if not, I would have fallen down.

Then, it became really hard to breathe and I got really hot. However, I could not move one inch of my body I felt so weak. After a good 10 minutes, I was finally able to stand up and try and rinse the conditioner out, but that didn't last long either. By this time, I was feeling completely sick to my stomach and way nauseous.

Now, I don't think I have to preface this for y'all, but I am the girl that has thrown up all of two times in her life. I hate it. And most the time talk myself out of it. It's a huge fear, folks, throwing up that is.

However, there was no stopping it this time. I was going to be sick. I grabbed the trash can and did the whole cough/gag thing a few times, but nothing came up. (Sorry for the visual.) I honestly don't know what is worse.

I sat there for a while, completely weak and faint, thinking I should tell my Dad to take me to the ER because I had never felt so strange. All the while, the shower is still going. I don't know how long I had actually "been in" the shower at this point. So, not knowing what to do, I got back in the shower, tried to rinse out the conditioner and then got back out. This time turning the shower off.

My mom came upstairs right then to tell me to hurry and get ready because we were meeting people for dinner, but the minuted I opened my door, she knew I wasn't okay. I was as white as my robe. No joke.

I literally just collapsed on my bed and put a few bags close just in case I should get sick again. I laid there for a good while and finally got some color back.

We still aren't sure if I had a fever, because I was still hot from the shower, but as the night went on and I think back, I am pretty sure I did.

Since than, I still feel kind of weak and tired and have only eaten one meal, but I am just not hungry. However, I did just make myself eat a plate of vegetables. And, I did enjoy being around people again today, too.

Y'all, it was seriously the weirdest thing that has happened to me. And so suddenly. Needless to say, I stayed on the couch all night long with a pounding headache, and slept like a baby last night. I've been so much better today, but now have this fear of taking a shower. Like that was what did it to me or something. Ha!

So, I have self-diagnosed myself with Anemia. Actually, my mom thinks I am anemic and the minuted I looked it up on WebMD, I was convinced I have it, too. Every symptom they listed was every symptom I had. I have been know to be a hypochondriac at times, but I certainly believe this could be legit. I just tried not to pay attention to everything else it listed so that I wouldn't freak myself out! I've learned my lesson in looking up illnesses online.

If you are still reading this highly entertaining story, bless you. However, know that I am okay and plan to make a doctors appointment real soon so I can avoid any more "spells" like this!

Y'all are great and I so hope you had a great weekend. This week my calendar is much calmer, so I am thrilled. I plan on taking it easy!

Also, please keep praying for Chase! He is doing much better but isn't quite out of the woods yet. Thanks, sweet friends!

Prayers for Chase

I know this blog community is definitely also a prayer community as we have seen the past few weeks, so I am asking if you all would pray for Chase.

Chase is Jen's brother-in-law and just recently (Wednesday night) discovered that his platelets are alarmingly low. He was admitted to the hospital and they have been doing all sorts of tests and treatments to discover what the cause of this is. There is still no answer, but they really need his counts to go up by tomorrow morning so that they don't have to do a bone marrow biopsy.

Ronda has a lot more details on her blog and is keeping everyone updated through that. So, really I am directing you over there so you can pray more specifically for him!

What makes this really tricky, besides the fact that so much is unknown, is the fact that Ronda is pregnant with twins and is due in the next few weeks. However, they are healthy enough that they could come any minute! Clearly, right now would be a very inopportune time for Ronda to go into labor. So, if you could pray for her too, that her body wouldn't be stressed and that they babies would stay in, I know she would be so grateful. And, that she would get some rest while taking care of Chase at the same time. She is really supposed to be on bed rest right now, but the situation at hand is making that a little difficult.

So, needless to say, they need your prayers. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that y'all are one praying community! Keep updated on her blog! Thanks, y'all!

An Exciting (Yet Exhausting) Week

Well, it has certainly been a very busy week, which is clearly apparent in my lack of blogging.

First off, let me say "Thank You" so much to those of you who prayed for the Jr. High retreat this weekend. It was great, and behold, I had TONS of energy. Really, I did! Granted, it was only one night, but those one nighters can certainly do you in. Especially when the bed time is late, and the alarm clock goes off early. Needless to say, I had a great time with my group, the 8th grade girls, and maybe sometime I can tell you about all the hilarious questions they asked me and conversations we had. It was a good time had by all!

That night after the retreat I headed on over to a friends house to see my sweet Lauri. Lauri is a missionary with Pioneers and is in town this week for our Missions Conference. It has been so good getting to catch up with her. If you'll remember way back one, she is one of the ones I mentioned who had a huge impact in my getting this job. To say I love her to pieces is an understatement. She challenges me and encourages me like no other!

Saturday night after getting home from all the festivities, I went to bed way too unbelievably late after being up way to late the night before, and knowing that my alarm would be going off way too early, yet again, Sunday morning.

Sunday kicked off the Missions week and it was a great morning. The day was pretty calm after that. Went to my small group with the Junior girls, and then, of course headed to church that night.

Monday is where I really start kicking myself in the rear. You see, for a while now I have wanted to start a Girl's Bible Study once a month, and decided last December that I would start it this January. So, I picked the date for Jr. High and for High School, put it on the calendar, and moved on with life. That was until I realized that I scheduled both bible studies for THIS WEEK. Y'all, I do not know what I was thinking. However, I had my first one Monday night with the High School girls, and it went great! I was able to prepare all day Monday, which was good and I was not nearly as stressed as I thought I would be. Next time, though, I will undoubtedly have better planning skills. I will not be planning bible study right after retreat or during a busy week at church. Never again.

Girl's Bible Study for Jr. High is this Friday, and I'm not so stressed, just ready for it to be here. They seem really excited about it, though, which thrills my little heart and makes me more excited about it! Even though the girl's expressed interest in it, you just never know if anyone will show up for the first one. Alas, the high school girl's did, so I am guessing the Jr. High girls will, too.

Tuesday night was our third night of "The Inheritance" bible study, and y'all, it is so good. I think of all of y'all so often because, at least the first two nights, were very similar to LPL in San Antonio. Good stuff, right? You'll be happy to know they are taping it, so my assumption is that something will come of it. Probably not anytime terribly soon, but still get excited.

Yesterday, I had a very eventful day from morning till midnight. It started with the weekly student ministry meeting at Starbucks (It does us all some good!), then I met up with Lauri and Allison for some Mexican food. Y'all already know my love for Lauri, but do you know my love for Allison? She is beyond adorable, y'all, and the wife of our new Missions Pastor, who ironically used to be the youth pastor here. I have so enjoyed having them back. Allison and I have tried to hook up for quite some time now, and it finally worked out. I am hoping, however, that doesn't end once Lauri is gone, even though we will miss her.

Of course after lunch I went back to work, than it was time for Wednesday night. I hopped back and forth from high school, to the ladies mission's dinner. After all of that was said and done, a few of us, including Lauri, Allison, Sally, Docia, Christina, and Michelle all went to TGI Friday's and enjoyed a few laughs. It was such a fun night. However, I got home close to midnight, and as if I wasn't already exhausted from the whole week, my body absolutely collapsed.

Needless to say, I slept in today. For a long time. Longer than normal. And I think it was very needed.

At first it was hard getting used to having Thursday's off (because Sunday's are a work day) but I have gotten really used to it now.

So, here I am, in my pajamas after just finishing a bowl of cereal, of which I could eat for every meal. I have a few things on my to do list today, one of which is tackling my room again. There isn't much to "tackle", but I have a few more piles of things I'd like to go through to get rid of. Have I mentioned that I love de-cluttering? Oh, because I do.

I'll leave you with a picture of me and Lisa, The Preacher's Wife, from Girl's Night out last Thursday. I love this lady and this picture. I, however, completely stole hers because I like it better than mine.

And lastly, a picture of me, Claire and Lauri last Saturday at the open house. Love these girls! (And please, remember I came straight from the retreat. I was looking a little tired!)

Have a great Thursday, y'all!

His Name

The past three weeks, Gregg Matte, from HFBC has been doing a series on "The Birds and the Bees." For the past two weeks my schedule has not allowed me to go. However, whenever I miss a Sunday night there, I try and listen to it online. Well, I did just that with the past two sermons, and then was able to go tonight. And y'all, it was so good. I mean, so good. And I am so glad I actually got to be there! As much as I love listening online, being there is all the better. However, even if you don't go to HFBC or live in Houston, seriously check this series out online. I pray if you do, that you will be equally encouraged and challenged.

Tonight he actually wrapped up the series and talked to each individual "group" that was represented. The parents, the marrieds, and the singles/students. I am all ears anyway, but when the "singles" time came, my ears perked up a bit more. Don't get me wrong, he had some awesome points for us that I will carry with me and challenge myself with, however, my favorite part was the story he told at the end.

He had this box with him that looked like a present. Immediately, I guessed what it was. And I was right. Sure enough, it was a box of letters he had written to his wife before he even met her.

He shared with us his story that when he was single, it seemed like all his friends were getting married and moving on, but he wasn't. The Lord wasn't blessing him in that way at that time, but he had the desire. {Insert my life story here. Not bitter. Or mad. Or angry. Or sad. Just my story that I am extremely thankful for.}

Of course, this resonated with my heart, because, see {insert} above, I have felt this way at times. At "at times" probably isn't the correct term, I still struggle with this.

Anyway, he then shared with us this box. Basically, whenever he would desire his wife, he would write her a letter telling her how much he loved her already, even though he didn't know her. He pulled out the first letter he ever wrote to his wife before they even met, and he shared part of it with us. He even put a question mark after the "Dear..." in the letter and on the outside of the envelope. First of all, I think this is by far the sweetest thing ever. Truly.

Secondly, my heart dropped to my toes. Because y'all, I have been doing the same thing. And for me, it really is a way to not only remember to pray for my future husband, but a way to let him know, once we're finally married, that I have waited for him. And prayed for him. And cared for him. And thought about him. And honestly, it's a good for me to re-focus my thoughts when I am caught up in my "single" status. Instead of the pity party, the tears, the lonely thoughts, this really is a "therapy" sort of thing.

Needless to say, after Gregg met Kelly, his wife, he started writing her name on the letters and then gave her all of them on their honeymoon.

This story alone was so encouraging to me in many ways. Sometimes, I've felt weird doing this. I know I'm not the only girl who does it, but still, you just never know what someone will think about it if they are on the receiving end.

Gregg said Kelly wept as she read them. I'm pretty confident I would do the same thing.

And then again, I'm reminded that my journey, my life, is for His Glory. As another Greg, at my church preached this morning. His Glory alone should be my passion whether or not my life turns out the way I want it to. Oh Lord, please!

I can't wait to write his name in the letters and on the envelopes. Can't wait.

But until then, I'll keep Mr. Question Mark in my prayers and of course, my letters. And I can't wait till the day I get to share his name with you. What a fun day that will be.

The Past Two Weeks = Busy

I really don't have much time to be on here, but I thought I'd stop in to say hello and ask if y'all would send up a quick prayer this weekend.

However, first off, last night's Girl's Night Out with Claire was so much fun! Those ladies are a hoot and definitely know how to tell a story. Not only do they know how to tell a story, they know how to make a girl cry. Like, for real! Of course, good tears! Best of all, I most definitely didn't feel strange being a single girl there. Not one bit! And of course, it was exciting seeing Kate of Jon & Kate Plus 8 in real life. Homegirl is cute and has a very cute haircut right now. She also came sporting her cute outfit and darling shoes that killed her feet. But, like she said, it is painful to be beautiful!

And I can't forget to mention how fun it was to see our darling Lisa, The Preacher's Wife! I'm pretty sure I hugged her neck a good 10 times. I just love her to pieces. I do have a picture, but have not uploaded it yet and have not time at the moment to do so. Also in attendance was Melanie (aka Big Mama) who is just as sweet as pie, Amanda, who was sporting her precious yellow purse and said she would be blogging about it soon. It is definitely blog worthy. I can't wait! And of course Missy who is so cute and pregnant with baby Ellison. How fun is that name?! So fun! And I met some other bloggers, too. Anyway, all in all it was a great night.

Before the grand Girl's Night Out, I spent all day cleaning my room. Literally. I also managed to get rid of 3 bags of clothes and 1 bag of shoes. Go me! When I get the time, I am definitely blogging about that. There is a lot to say about a girl's closet, and I know y'all care to hear the gory details.

Really, all that to say that in the past 2 weeks, I'm pretty sure I've been home all of 2 nights. It has been so busy, but a good, not-so-overwhelming busy.

This weekend only adds to the craziness. In about 2 hours I will be heading to Planet Wisdom with about 50 of our Jr. High students for the weekend. We are all very excited, but you all know how tiring retreats can be. Especially with Jr. High. They have an energy that surpasses all energy I've ever had. So, if you would pray for them, that their hearts would be open to what the Lord has to say, I would be most grateful. Also, if you would pray that each of the leaders, including myself, to have energy, patience, love and grace and really just a good time with the students, I know we would all greatly appreciate that.

After the retreat is over, I have an open house Saturday night (it is only a one night deal!) for one of my favorite missionaries ever. This Sunday starts our GO Week at church, which focuses on missions, but Lauri is starting a little early. I'm totally okay with that because boy oh boy do I miss her. And clearly never get to see her since she doesn't live in Houston!

And then of course, as I mentioned, Sunday morning starts all the craziness. Yet fun and exciting all at the same time!

So, if you think of all of us here at CBC this weekend, we would so greatly covet your prayers!

Well, y'all, it is approximately 2:22 and I have a little less than 2 hours to leave my office, run a few errands, pack, grab some dinner/lunch and be back up here at 4:00 for a leaders meeting. Hence why I must run! Love y'all and hope you have a great weekend!

Girl's Night Out

Most of you, I would assume, are familiar with Proverbs 31 Ministries and Lysa Terkeurst. In all actuality, you are probably way more familiar with it than me because I clearly am lacking in the wife and motherhood aspect of who Proverbs 31 Ministries primarily serves. However, I am grateful for their ministry, and personally, I am a huge fan of Lysa’s blog. Homechick is funny. And real. And clearly has an amazing testimony of adoption. And we have discussed before the fact that both of our names are spelled differently. We're cool like that.

All that to say Proverbs 31 Ministries is hosting a “Girl's Night Out” tonight at Champion Forest Baptist Church, which is all of ten minutes (a little more with traffic) from my house.

KSBJ (our local Christian radio station) had been advertising this event for quite sometime, and as much as I really wanted to go, I felt silly because clearly, I would most likely be the only single girl there. So, after that I didn’t really give it much thought.

Well, a few weeks before Christmas, Claire’s husband, Russell, called me to say that he was going to get Claire tickets to go for Christmas, but was wondering if I would go along with her so she didn’t have to go alone. It took me all of 5 seconds to say yes. Y’all, I just really didn’t want to miss it.

Plus, Kate Gosslin, from Jon & Kate Plus 8 is going to be there too, and hello, did I forget to mention that is one of my favorite TV shows?

So, I am going. To an event for primarily wives and mothers. I’ve just been telling everyone that it will be a “Wising Up” event for me. I’m all about preparing for the future. Whenever that may be.

In the meantime, since it has been a while since Christmas, and since we got the tickets before then, I have placed this event in the back of my mind, until this week when I realized that it was THIS WEEK. I got kind of excited and quite giddy.

The greatest part, however, was tonight, I got a little email from Lisa asking me if I knew where she is going to be tonight? I of course had no idea, but when she replied back with HOUSTON, TEXAS, I about wet myself. She asked if I had heard of the conference, and knew what church it was at and asked where I was in relation to that, but little did she know, that not only do I live so close to the church, but I will be at the event, too. What a FUN surprise! I get to hug our darling Lisa’s neck in less than 24 hours and I am beaming with excitement.

This makes up for the fact that most of you will be having another fun “Siesta Fiesta” this weekend, and I will only be there in spirit. To at least hug one of your necks is a fun little blessing to me.

And, according to Lysa’s blog from a few days ago some other fun bloggers will be there, too.

So, not only do I get to go with my Claire for a girls night out, but I get to hear Lysa Terkeurst, Kate Gosselin, Renee Swope, Ayiesha Woods and Jason Catron and see some sweet blogging friends, and hug Lisa’s neck. To say I am so excited is a sad understatement.

More than a “Girl's Night Out“, however, I am going to consider this, as I stated before, a “Wising Up” night so I feel somewhat better about myself for being probably one of ten single girls there. However, I’ll let you know if there are more. Love y’all like I love Chinese food. And boy do I love me some good Chinese food.

Two Year Blogaversary

Well, I think I’ve kept it up, my blog that is. I say that because my first post was titled, “We’ll see if I keep this thing up…“ How crazy it is to me that I have had two years worth of information that have been of somewhat interest to you people. I mean really, I don’t think my life, or my writing is that intriguing at all.

However, I know that whether or not people read this thing, it has been such a such a fun, interesting thing to look back on. And of course a fun memory keeper, which is truly one of the most fun things about blogging. And need I even mention the huge blessing and encouragement you all have been to me these past years? I would have never thought in a million years that I would have met some seriously fun, and seriously funny ladies on the Internet, let alone meet them and start a friendship with them. What an unexpected blast that has been!

So, in honor of my two year blogaversary, as if my blog is not already enough all about me, I am going to list a bunch of randoms about me you may or may not know. I will go until I run out of randomness. Which could be fairly quick because I’m not the most interesting being on the planet. Nor am I that creative. So, here goes the random facts of Lindsee that I know you care, and are dying to know.

- I am not completely OCD but have some major OCD tendencies.
- Some of these tendencies include: my night time and shower routine. Since about 6th grade, I have washed my face every single night. I cannot, and will not go to sleep unless my face is free of anything that will clog the pores. If I happen to fall asleep, I will get up even if it’s 2 a.m. and wash my face. It is sad, I know. Just ask the peeps I live with.
- My shower routine is also the same every time. This includes shaving my legs every single shower. Even in the winter. I have issues with spiky legs. My own, not yours.
- I am one of the least competitive people you will ever meet, which I think is why I was never that into sports, even though the volleyball coach in high school consistently asked if I would join the team. Little did she know that me and the ball were never one. And plus, I consider myself physically challenged.
- I am a “sweet tooth” girl. Therefore when I am around anything sweet, “Self-Control” is one of the lowest fruits on the totem pole. I am seeking the Lord on this one. Both he and I know I could do without.
- I have very long eyelashes.
- Because of my very long eyelashes, it takes me just as much time to do my mascara as it does to put on my entire face every morning. I have come to embrace this fact, others, however, don’t understand. That is of course unless you are a BFF or my family. They are so patient with my morning routine. Let’s face it, I like to take my time.
- I am currently in the process of growing out my hair. I chopped it all off about a year and a half ago, and to say I miss it is a sad understatement.
- Part of the reason I am growing it back out is because my hair is naturally wavy/curly. When it is short, the curly does not work well. And frankly, it knocks a good 30 minutes off my morning routine. I am needing some long, curly hair again.
- I love to laugh. Probably my favorite thing to do in the entire world. And believe me, when I get tickled, there is no turning back.
- I am easily entertained, so therefore, I enjoy almost anything entertaining. Especially when it comes to music and movies.
- I love babies. Not in the I-want-a-baby-tomorrow way, but I have always loved them. I’m pretty sure I started babysitting when I was in 6th grade. I am very comfortable around them, and have been know to put a few to sleep every now and then. Really, it’s the “Bop” that does the trick. I learned that from my Mom.
- In a strange way, even though I have never had one, dogs are drawn to me. I call myself the dog whisperer. Why can’t I be the boy whisperer?
- I am, I think 6ft. tall. If not, I am right under it.
- With that said, I have a 37 inch inseam. No lie. I am all legs.
- I am a pretty patient person except for when it comes to driving behind somebody that is either going the exact speed limit, or a little below. Because, we all know that if you are behind that person, you are not going the speed limit.
- It is a hug pet peeve of mine when people do awful parking jobs. Like, take-up-ten-spaces parking jobs. Who gave them them the parking pass to park wherever, and whenever you please. I am certain the world would be a happier place if you only take up the one you were given.
- I was the first of my family born in Texas to a California dad, and a Colorado mom.
- I really like shoes and bags.
- I used to love the Broadway shoe Aida, which I saw 3 times. Twice in New York, and once in Houston.
- This led to my love of Heather Headley, whom I just watched on T.V. singing with Josh Groban. It was a little slice of heaven.
- I had the amazing privilege to sing with Josh Groban at the Superbowl along with my 2 brothers, Jen, and some other alumni from Houston Children's Chorus when it was in Houston.
- I went to Italy for two weeks where we traveled to Rome, Venice and Florence. As much as I hated leaving my parents for that long (I was in 8th grade) I didn't want to come home. I LOVED Italy.
- To put myself to sleep, or when I am really tired, I rub my feet together unintentionally. I am always really nervous when I am sharing a bed with someone that doesn't know this about me that they will get really annoyed. So therefore, I try not to do it. However, when I don't do it, I truly don't fall asleep as easily. It's weird, I know.
- I love reading. However, I used to hate reading. I love it so much now that I have, in recent weeks, stayed up till 4 a.m. reading. Yes, we are working on self-control.
- I find it extremely sad that I missed my one year blogaversary, my 100th post and my 200th post. Hopefully I’ll make something of my 300th post, which is only 5 posts away. But really, what in the world could I do for my 300th post? I have a feeling it will be extremely boring, just like I was extremely sad I missed the rest of those monumental moments in blog world.
- On that note, my randomness is over at number 27. I am sure you were highly amused.

Y’all (as if I can see you) have been so much fun these past few years and have brought such unexpected joy to my life. Seriously! I have come to love blogging. So, now it’s your turn. If you have visited and never commented I’d love to meet you! Just let me know where your from and how you got here. And, if you do comment regularly, which I absolutely love reading your comments, feel free to tell me how you ever got directed to the blog that is Lindsee Lou! Or, you can just give a two year old some lovin’! I sure do love you people.

My Journey Is For His Glory

I don’t want this post to be in vain. And I surely don’t want my life to be lived in vain.

My prayer is that my life would give the utmost Glory and credit to our Mighty God. Because frankly, He deserves and demands, mind you, every bit of it. Whether we like it or not, when all is said and done, HE WILL get the Glory.

With that said, I simply cannot hold back any longer.

My heart is bursting with such a love for Him and His ways that I can’t not tell you.

This is my heart for all to see.

You see, I know I talk about my life as a single girl on here a lot. But, to be completely honest, sometimes I feel guilty talking about it. Because honestly, the last thing I want anybody to think is that I am looking for a pity party, or for people to think that I think that once I get married, I will be the most content, happy go lucky girl on earth. I know that is not true. I know it is far from the truth, because I know that the only person that will satisfy both me and you completely will be my Jesus. I’m not saying I always live that out, but I strive to live that out.

And, on top of that, I don’t want y’all to ever get the idea that I am complaining about where the Lord has me now. Please here me out, I would not want to be doing anything else right now than serving Him. It has been the biggest blast, honor and joy. I love it.

The truth is, however, is that I have a desire to be married. (And of course start a family!) Not a desire to date around here and there, or kiss lots of boys, but a desire to be married. And I don’t think that is so wrong.

At 23 years of age I don’t think the Lord has called me to give up that desire or dream quite yet. I’m pretty confident He is telling me to wait. Wait on Him. His timing. And His perfect plan (and man!) for me.

I have not a fat clue when this desire might come to pass. It could be this year, or it could be 13 years from now. However, I know that when the time comes, He is going to blow me away and give me more than I could ever imagine. He is going to give me His best, which I completely don’t deserve. And He is going to prove Himself faithful, yet again. (As if He ever had to do it in the first place!) And that my friends, is a promise. Only God.

There are countless times the enemy tries to use my story against me. He likes to whisper in my ear that clearly something is very wrong with me because at my age, a boy has never even asked me on a date. Let alone liked me. Or kissed me. Or pursued me. Or chosen me. And to be honest, sometimes I entertain that thought, and too wonder what could possibly be wrong with me?

But, now more than ever I have been able to combat that lie with the Truth of His mighty word. A boy does not make me who I am. He does not complete me. And even better, the Lord has chosen me, and pursued me, and loved me with an everlasting love.

I still don’t know why the Lord has chosen to hold back on this one area of my life. Yes, I know I am still a young 23, but y’all have to remember that more of my friends are married than not and are starting families. The enemy tries to use that against me, too.

The only thing I can think of to answer my question as to why He has held back, is because He keeps reminding of His Glory.

His ways are not my ways. Nor his thoughts my thoughts.

God is the only answer I have. And boy oh boy have we wrestled this one to the ground.

When my story is played out in conjunction with His, He will get the Glory and He knows that. Whether I like it or not.

When I look back on this time in my life, I want to be found faithful to Him, just like He has been faithful to me. I want to look back and know that I Believed God!

Ultimately, He will be Glorified in my (very future) marriage because He is the only one that could pull it off. And as much as I would love to do it my own way, and try and find my own man, I would much rather have it His way.

Right now He has called me to wait. And wait I will, while serving Him. However, my heart has to believe that He is up to something far greater than I could ever imagine. And I’m okay with that, because I’m sure His dreams and desires for me far outweigh what I have conjured up in my mind.

All I know is I am on a wild journey and I love it. This desire just happens to be apart of the journey, and I can’t deny it. It is there. To try and stuff it down, deny it, and never bring it up would likely kill me, and really deny the fact that He is working in my life. Just like most of you can’t deny the fact that He is working in your lives in completely different ways. He has a story for Lindsee Eddy, for me, unique, that won’t look like anybody else’s, and I am so game for that. If we all had the same story, if we all wanted to be someone else, think about how boring this world would be.

So, as I write about my single hood on here, and the crazy (and sometimes emotional) ride that it is, know that I can’t not talk about it. It is who I am. I believe it’s apart of the story God is writing. One that I can’t write myself. (But one that I have wanted to write myself at times, because I think it would have been easier!)

However, He will not share His Glory with another. Amen!

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21

“However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him” but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.” 1 Corinthians 2:9-11

A Moment of Panic

I was about to title this post "Shear Panic", but I figured that would be a little too dramatic for something that lasted all of 1 minute. Of course, I know as girls we're all about the drama, but I didn't want to get you all riled up about nothing.

This post is going to turn into me telling you all about the title. How boring.

Anyway, onto my moment of panic.

Last night after Jazzercise as I was on my way home, the little brother phoned me to ask if I could pick up some American Cheese from the store. Of course, my immediate reply was, "You mean the yellow cheese, right?". He immediately did one of those you-are-so-dumb laughs, then replied with a "Yes." I mean, let's be real, there are only about 789 different kinds of cheese, and sometimes that is intimidating. I definitely didn't want to bring home the wrong cheese and cause much disappointment. You can only use so many cheeses to make a good Grilled Cheese.

Enough about cheese.

I stopped in at a local Neighborhood Wal-Mart and proceeded to get a basket. I figured since I was there I could pick up a few other things I needed. Like yogurt. Since I had obviously just come from Jazzercise, all I had with me was my wallet, my phone and my keys. I put the phone and keys in my jacket pocket, and then proceeded to put my wallet where you would otherwise put your child of choice. (I don't know where the "child of choice" came from, it just sounded cool.)

Now, picture this with me, I put my wallet in a place where a small child can fit, let alone put their leg through. Warning number one.

I was in Wal-Mart for all of five minutes because frankly, I didn't want to be there, and secondly, there was no way I was missing One Tree Hill. Don't judge me.

So, after picking up the needed items, which of course included the American Cheese, I went to the checkout line where I proceeded to place all of my items on Mr. Conveyor Belt. It was after all my items were almost scanned when I reached back to get my wallet and you guessed it, it was gone. Not there. Missing.

My heart immediately dropped to the floor and I was more dumbfounded than anyone I've ever known. I didn't even know what to say to the lady checking me out. Simply nothing came out of my mouth. Of course, I kept looking back again at the child safety seat thinking it would appear, but to my dismay, it never did.

Finally I uttered the words, "I can't get any of this. My wallet is gone."

I mean really, did I have to tell her I couldn't get anything? "My wallet is missing" would have sufficed.

She too looked shocked, which didn't help my heart which was about to beat out of my chest. By then, I had already blamed some cool person who clearly stole my wallet and I was in pure freak out mode.

The more obvious reason, though, that it was missing is because it probably slipped out of the huge leg hole.

All of the sudden, though, she got a face of revelation on her face and said, "Is it green?"

I couldn't scream "YES!" quick enough. Because indeed, my wallet is green. Just like the billions of dollars I have.

Of course I repeated myself about 15 times, when finally a man who worked there came and handed me my wallet, asking if that was mine. He proceeded to tell me that he thought he was a lucky guy that night because green was his color. Um, no sir. And no thank you. I wasn't in the mood to joke about my lost, green wallet.

They told me that a sweet customer turned it in. I said a "Thank You" prayer to Jesus immediately, because honestly, who turns in wallets these days? Sad, but true. They would have been disappointed in the lack of "green" actually in the wallet, but I was still forever grateful.

And that, my friends, was my moment of panic.

Thank you, Jesus for the kind person who turned in my green wallet. Bless them!

A Few Good Things (Not To Be Mistaken For A Few Good Men)

I am currently in the process of de-cluttering the hot mess that is my room. I have no greater thrill than getting rid of meaningless, take-up-space things. But, before you go thinking that I just throw it all away, I will have you know that I always disperse the unwanted items to a better place. Some items go to Goodwill. Some things go to people. (That would be the clothes. And my aunt already called first dibs this time.) And then yes of course, there will inevitably be the things that make it to the trash can. In this instance, I am completely different from my mother who feels the need to keep the most mundane things. At least I think they are mundane.

So far I have made it through only 2 piles and have at least 238986 more to go. Joy!

But, I couldn't go any farther without sharing a few good things with you. At least they are good things to me, but could be totally mundane to you. I am liking that word, mundane.

1) My boss, and youth pastor extraordinaire gave into the pressure to start a blog. I told him he can't let me down on this one and must blog AT LEAST once a month. I think that is doable. Feel free to hop on over there to make him feel good. He said it would boost his self-esteem greatly if he had visitors.

2) My life became 10 times more organized this morning when I set up my Google Reader. Praise the Lord for that thing. And really y'all, why is it that I have been blogging for almost TWO YEARS (on January 18th) and I JUST realized the time saver that is that thing. You don't even want to know how much time I spend going from blog to blog just to see who has updated. Ridiculous. Needless to say, I spent a generous amount of time this morning entering all 50 of your blogs in there. I felt so good about myself.

3) I challenged some of my girls over at the Lily Blog to join me in memorizing scripture. I challenged them to just start by memorizing one a month. Even at that, they will memorize and meditate on 12 scriptures this year. So far, four girls have signed up for the challenge. I am so proud of them and so excited to see what the Lord will do in their lives. I mean, what is better than a young generation of girls (that I am not too far removed from) rising up to fill their minds with truth? I love them to pieces.

4) My "funk" of a mood is getting tons better. Really, it all boils down to me and my sweet Jesus. We had to do some wrestling. And wrestling it was, and it was good. At this point in my life I've never had to trust Him more or even love Him more. And, I need Him to love me. More than anything. It has been a good/hard past few weeks. But, He is and will forever be good.

5) Our bible study on "Inheritance" starts this next Tuesday and I am SO excited. I have a feeling it will be a very good Word.

6) I just put eight pairs of jeans in my "Shopping Bag" at Gap.com. My intent is to get one pair of jeans. Hence why I must get rid of seven. It's going to be a hard draw, folks. They've got some pretty cute trouser jeans out right now. But, no worries, I assure you I will only get one. Believe me, I'm totally not rolling in the dough.

7) Last night I met Jen at Memorial City Mall after work (it truly is the perfect place for us to meet up!) and we went and saw Bride Wars! To say that I L-O-V-E-D this movie is an absolute understatement. It's pretty much up there on my list of favorites. I laughed so hard, and even shed a tear. I wouldn't have wanted to see this movie for the first time with anybody else. (Although, Jo and Sal would have made the night complete.) I was her Maid of Honor and if things work out between us, she'll be mine. (And I'm totally kidding about the things "working out between us!") However, I will have like 157 Maids of Honors. And they all know who they are. In my opinion, the movie is a buyer. Then again, I am easily entertained. So, what I think is fabulous, you might hate. And I'm okay with that. After the movie we made our normal trek to CPK (California Pizza Kitchen) and had one of the most edifying conversations I have had in a long time, while sharing a mighty fine appetizer. I left last night so encouraged by my BFF. I love her to pieces. All in all, it was a wonderful evening.

Well folks, my iTunes play list is on party shuffle (you know, cause we're having a huge party up in here!) and Rascal Flatts just came on, which is my hint to move on and get to cleaning again. For some reason, those rascals put me in a cleaning mood. And I have no idea why. Peace out.